a transition from being a student of someone else’s curriculum to being the architect of your own.
Zibaldone
Scattered thoughts, ideas, and quotes from books, films and rabbit holes.
My greatest sin is that I keep feeding behaviors I promised myself I would starve, and starve the behaviors I promised myself I would feed.
“Your worst sin is that you have destroyed and betrayed yourself for nothing.”
– Fyodor Dostoevsky, Crime and Punishment
I’ve never learned to achieve things through self-love or self-compassion. My only language is obsession, my only fuel is burning myself down to build something up.
“The view from half way down”
– Alison Tafel, BoJack Horseman
“The agenda is in my head”
– Thomas Shelby, Peaky Blinders
“Organized chaos”
“Confirmation bias”
“Solitude isn’t loneliness”
“Hedonic treadmill”
“Self-distract not self-sabotage”
“Earnestness over composure”
“Micro failures that teach grit”
“Righteousness without power is just an opinion”
– Valentina Allegra de Fontaine, Thunderbolts
“Nostalgia for futures that never happened”
– Some TikTok comment
Never fully awake, never truly asleep.
“We accept the love we think we deserve.”
– Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower
“Fearing the natural state of progress.”
“weaponized autism”
We’re all imperfect people searching for perfection in others.
I’m home sick for a city I never lived in
We work to afford lives we barely have time to live. The trap is elegant in its cruelty.
“wasted potential”
“I think the reward for conformity is that everyone likes you except yourself.”
– Rita Mae Brown
“How we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives.”
– Annie Dillard, The Writing Life
Already felt everything I’ll ever feel. Nothing new waiting on the other side.
“You pray to catch the bus and then you run as fast as you can.”
– Kerry Washington
“Curiouser mind”
“Despite the fact that you have the most freedom you’ve ever had in your life yet you feel the loneliest.”
– Some TikTok about college
“I become a generalist by default for my incessant need to understand.”
– @k0ncept, X
“You rate a man by what he has made of his family and not his businesses.”
– Rev. Olusola Areogun
“Social media got regular people thinking they’re too good for regular people.”
– Rhino, loveliveserve
“Internally distracted”
You don’t force yourself to paint a masterpiece. You become the kind of person who paints masterpieces, then you simply paint.
“In the future… if by some miracle you ever find yourself in the position to fall in love again… fall in love with me.”
– Colleen Hoover, It Ends with Us